Today, we had a guest speaker at our church it was Caz McCaslin who is the founder of Upward Sports. If you are not familiar with Upwards it is a way for the church to reach the community by offer recerational sports, basketball, soccer, baseball, football and cheerleading, and also being able to share Jesus Christ with the kids and parents. This is an awesome organization and Caz has such a passion for kids and reaching them. One thing he spoke about today was about how he had a best friend in college and they did everything together and spent pretty much every spare moment together, but one thing he said is he never during the first two years of their friendship did he share the one thing that meant the most to him, which was Jesus. Caz posed the question to us and asked if we share Jesus with the people when we have opportunities to. I started thinking that I really don't take that chance as much as I should. So I thought since my blog has some viewers that I would share my testimony on here as a start and hopefully with this God will open more opportunities for me to share with others.
I was raised in a christian home, both of my parents were christians and they always made sure we knew and understood that God came first in our lives. Every Sunday and Wednesday i was at church learning about God and his son Jesus. When I was 9 years old i got saved. I remember starting to ask questions and trying to understand. I spoke to my pastor and we prayed together and I asked Jesus into my heart. Life to me didn't change much. I didn't have a revoluntary moment in my life, I just knew I believed in jesus and what he did and now that I was saved i would spend enternity in heaven with him when I died. Church to me when I was young was confusing, the hyms we sang didn't make much sense and the bible was full of thee's and thou's so it was hard for me to read the bible and understand so I think at some point I just decided it was easier to know I was a christian and let that be that instead of trying to build a relationship with Jesus. Church became a social thing for me and it was hard for me to stand up to my friends saying a I was a christian and speak about God because I really didn't know him. For the next better part of my life I just when throught life knowing God was there if I needed him, but as long as things were going good I didn't really give him much thought. Even thought I didn't show God much love or attention He still continued to work in my life by putting people in my life that were strong christians, one in particular was a co-worker Patricia. I worked with her everyday for 5 years and we became great friends but through her and her actions and words I started to realize that I was missing out on something with God. She had this amazing trusting relationship with God and it was all based on faith. Even though I started to see these things I still wasn't quit ready to turn my life back to God, to me things were going great and God was the person you went to when times were bad. I wanted to live my life the way I wanted to and I knew if I was going to follow God I would have to change things in my life and I just wasn't ready to do that. I first had to let go of my pride and the thought that I can handle everything going on in my life. It wasn't until I had our first daughter, Katie. I remember like it was yesterday. The day I had her and was holding her. I heard that small still voice inside of me, saying the love you feel for your daughter is just a small portion of the love God has for you. I started to realize at this time that God had to become a more important part of my life. Not only for myself, my marriage but for Katie and eventually Bree. I have two little girls that I am now responisble for in everyway and not given them the opportunity to know God and learn of Jesus love for us just didn't seem fair. I wanted my girls to have that chance, so even though my motives for church were more for them, God worked through this decision and has completely changed my heart. I see more now than every how amazing it is to love and serve Him. Anyone can go through life and have a great life without God, but life is just not the same. I have had the life without God in it and I know have the life with God as the center and our life is so much more blessed by having Him in our lives. Everyday I see how God works more and more in our lives and how the Holy Spirit gently guides me in my decisions and thoughts I have. I have always been a person that could just hang out in the back and be fine not being noticed, but it seems that God keeps pushing me to get out of that comfort zone. Even thought I fight Him all the way on this I am starting to realize that when I feel that nudge from Him I just need to do it and trust He will take care of the rest. So putting my testimony out here is a step in that direction and I will from time to time put other things like this on our blog when I feel God is leading me to speak what He has put on my mind.